很累很难过的五月可你不懂

you've been longing for me to be strong

 so I won't get tricked because of my innocence
you've been yearning for me to be independent

so I could survive without relying anyone

you've been wanting me to be intelligent 

so that I could protect myself

I do understand
you want me to be strong

when I need support the most, you asked me to stay strong

when I need comfort the most, you asked me to stay strong
you asked me to stay strong

You know what you want 

but not what I need

and so I learn

I learn to be strong

 I learn to be independent
I learn to be intelligent

But I know I'm not living in your ideal

so
I try hard

accepting my flaws 

being patient

collecting bits and parts of confidence 

and slot it into my soul

knowing that

 I could grow bigger

someday

and yet

you said I'm just a ignorance brad that is full of myself 

and I think that I'm smart

you ignore my growth and emphasize my flaws

you step on my confidence like it's just an ant under your feet

 How could you said all these

I know some words are not meant to be said

I know you don't mean it that much

But still it hurts

and

I don't know how to face all these

alone